✦ “I’m not okay, and I won’t say I am anyway.”


Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
I don’t have the strength to lie through my teeth
No fake “I’m fine” left inside of me
They want a smile, they want the mask
But I’m barely making it through the past

[Pre-Chorus]
I used to wear this face so well
Now it’s heavy like my own hell
Mirror shows the truth I hide
But I’m too tired to fake the light

[Chorus]
I don’t have energy to fake my smile today
I’m not okay, and I won’t say I am anyway
It’s just one of those days I can't escape
So let me drown in silence, let me break

[Verse 2]
Phone lights up but I don’t reply
Can't explain the reason why
Even breathing feels like a task
So don’t ask me to wear the mask

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to be who they want to see
But I lost the real parts of me
And if that makes them walk away
I guess I was never enough anyway

[Chorus]
I don’t have energy to fake my smile today
I’m not okay, and I won’t say I am anyway
It’s just one of those days I can't escape
So let me drown in silence, let me break

[Bridge – soft rap]
I’ve been smiling for years through the pain
Saying “I’m fine” in the pouring rain
But now I’m done with the empty show
If you really cared, you’d already know
No more filters, no disguise
What you see now is real, not lies

[Final Chorus]
I don’t have energy to fake my smile today
And maybe that’s okay — maybe that’s brave
It’s just one of those nights I can’t explain
But I’ll be here, quiet, in the ache

[Outro]
So don’t ask me to shine or play
I don’t have energy to fake today