In the mirror, a face I barely know Shadows still linger from long ago Wearing armor made of silence deep Guarding secrets that I can bearly keep
Footsteps falter on a lonely road Bearing weight I've always owned My eyes avoid so they don't see The tangled thoughts inside of me
I'm a whisper lost within the crowd Longing to say it all out loud But the walls I've built won't let them in Trapped between now and what has been
Heartbeat echoes like a distant drum Counting moments till I'm overcome Every smile is a well-worn guise Hiding fears I can't verbalize
If I could find the child I used to be I'd offer her the solace she sorely needs Tell her that it's okay to let it go That she doesn't have to face this all alone
I'd tell her softly, You should know They were wrong to make you feel so low It's not your fault, you're not to blame You no longer need to feel afraid
I'm a whisper lost within the crowd Longing to say it all out loud But the walls I've built won't let them in Trapped between now and what has been
Hands are shaking, holding onto control Fragile threads that bind my soul Every step is measured carefully Don't let them in, don't let them see
The emptiness, consuming me The mask, I must wear, eternally